Hello, well here I am again in your ear. You’ll be fine, I know it’s the first Christmas but you’ll be OK, you’ll see, so stop worrying. Get yourself outside and enjoy the fresh air. Wish I’d done that more often.
I’m content, not happy because I miss living but I’m not sad either. I’m just a bit like you feel.
Now you have a few choices to make next year, just trust yourself, if you feel good about it that’s all that matters. Thank you for holding my hand and being there. I know it was hard on you and I’m very grateful to you. Please just start living again, do whatever you can to be healthy and happy, OK? I’m only a heartbeat away, never forget that.
All my love, Mum X