Well, would you look at that, she picked me. You can stop hoping now lols here I am.
Hello, I’m so sorry this is so public but you put me here. How are you? What a ride. I hate to see you so alone and lost and still worrying about me, that’s why I’m writing this. I’m definitely at peace, finally. I need you all to know how deeply I loved you, you all. I showed it in my own way I just never expected to be doing it like this. All the firsts are hard for me too but remember I’m still right there when you need me, only a thought or breath away and you always could read my mind so you will know what I’d say to do when you are stuck.
Please celebrate Christmas for me and I’ll be there still looking after the Barbeque(he says to stop laughing). Thank you for being with me every step of the way. I didn’t want to leave you but when the breaths gone, it’s gone. Please keep living, do all the things we talked about, experience life just as you want to.
On the bright side you don’t have to go anywhere you don’t want to anymore and you get full control of the TV remote. (He is trying hard to bring humour into this because you need to feel lighter especially as Christmas approaches). Merry Christmas, love of my life you know you always were X